My journey in pregnancy so far has definitely been a rollercoaster ride for sure and I am only 24 weeks pregnant so I know I still have a lot more to come…
I’m usually a very positive person, when people are feeling down I do my best to lift them up and explain the good in situations and people. However, during my pregnancy I have really not felt like myself, I’ve been thinking the worst of each situation, just feeling paranoid about friends and people around me. I waited so long to be pregnant and now it’s here it isn’t what you may believe it to be like how it’s portrayed on Instagram.
“Do you have any cravings” I would get asked, “No, I just want to eat carbs all the time really.” I’d reply. Their response, “Oh really, I craved ice-cubes and fruit” Great, good for you, I wish I craved blocks of frozen water and fresh fruit that wouldn’t go straight to the hips and thighs but unfortunately I didn’t!
Throughout my life I’ve always battled hard with my weight, when I would be slim it’s because I worked damn hard for it. But now I’m pregnant I wanted to let all of that go and just focus on the miracle of growing life.
I felt pretty lonely during the first half of my pregnancy, all the activities I used to do such as Yoga, gym and little retreats had suddenly stopped. Some friends suddenly became busy for about 6 months and I just started to feel like I had been pushed into the “boring mummy zone who wont be able to do fun things anymore”
However, here’s the part why it really is like a rollercoaster… the highs…the SHOPPING!!! Finding cute little outfits and babygrows for my little girl really helped me to connect with her and imagine her in these little outfits. From around 14-15 weeks I really began to connect with my baby girl through my mind, body and soul, feeling her butterfly kicks and seeing her face clearly on a 4d scan.
I soon became one of those people who just couldn’t stop gushing about pregnancy and the beauty of it – i was getting my old self back again!
Although pregnancy has had its hard times, the heartburn, the weight gain, the comments, the drifting apart from friends – it really is worth it.
The lows are nothing compared to the highs and the excitement of what lies ahead. Bring on the swelling and the too fat to walk waddle – i’m ready for ya!