When going through this I was so shocked to find out that a shocking 70% of women experience the baby blues within the first couple of weeks of giving birth!!!
For me, I know the raging hormones did not help but it happened around the time when my milk started coming through, approx 5 days after giving birth. I found that I was constantly crying for no reason, feeling tired, irritable and extremely anxious.
Having a baby and becoming a mother for the first time felt like such a huge deal for me, I just felt so overwhelmed how this tiny human was entirely dependent on me for absolutely EVERYTHING. The feelings of despair, fear and self doubt engulfed me and I felt like I just couldn’t tell anyone without them judging me or thinking I was a bad mum – telling someone about it felt like I was admitting to being a failure.
Normally I wear my heart on my sleeve and would happily open up about my feelings to friends and family, but I just couldn’t face how badly my first few days of motherhood were panning out – i was devastated. Eventually, I broke down to my husband and explained my feelings of feeling numb towards to my baby and of dread whenever he would cry. I’m very lucky that my husband is compassionate and understanding, he really was my rock during this difficult time waiting for my diagnosis of postnatal anxiety and depression.
I can now say I’m on the road to recovery and my baby and I have a beautiful relationship going on. Just know that just because you are suffering with the baby blues, this does not define you as a mother and does not mean you are not doing the best you can. Get help, speak up and know that you are not alone!