Why can’t I accept this pregnancy

I’m 24 and currently 10 weeks pregnant, I’m sure most women are over the moon at this but me right now I can’t even smile at the thought of it.

I had a missed miscarriage at 22 followed by a complete molar pregnancy last April which puts your life on hold for minimum 6 months of no treatment is needed. We were cleared to try again after 6 months in October and fell pregnant in November it wasn’t exactly planned but its not not wanted either.

Had my early scan to rule out another CMP my partner cried my mum cried and well I just looked at the both and said are you both OK? Ontop of this I’ve got severe sickness with hospital admissions. 

I’m waiting for my dating scan and I can’t enjoy anything, I can’t get excited I constantly think what if somethings happened and my body hadn’t told me 😔

I’m just seriously struggling with this pregnancy, I wonder if I’ll belive it when baby is in my arms 

4 thoughts on “Why can’t I accept this pregnancy

  1. Anonymous says:

    First of all congratulations! Im sure this is just your hormones all over the place at the moment as you have had hard times with previous pregnancies. Im sure when you start to feel better and you feel the baby kicking for the first time this will change and will start to feel realll for you. Us mums go through a lot of different emotions during pregnancy so try not to worry to much as these feelings are totally normal.

  2. Anonymous says:

    hey hun, it’s hormones they play such a strange part of your life sometimes. Just give it time, you are only 10 weeks which is really early, you’ve not given yourself the chance to come to terms with it just yet. <3

  3. Anonymous says:

    I have had a missed miscarriage that was missed by three weeks past the safe period all the midwife’s kept shoving down my throat of (3 months you’re completely fine). I am now 9 weeks pregnant and I am so …almost heartbroken I cannot get excited and have birth trauma from my first son. I am like you I will only ever be happy once my child is in my arms. I’m sorry you feel like this I hope maybe later on we may be able to come to terms with it and feel excitement

  4. Anonymous says:

    I am in a very similiar situation, I am currently 16 weeks pregnant and me and my partner have been together the last 5 years and fell pregnant after a year of trying. We got married last year and I thought everything was brilliant but I noticed him slowly distancing himself from me but then when I found out i was pregnant I thought it would make things go back to normal as this is something we have both wanted for a long time. Just after our first scan at 10 weeks he said to me I cant do this anymore I am just not happy and basically packed his bags and went to live back at his mums. He now will not have any contact with me and I just dont understand why, and I dont have a clue what this holds for my babies future now. This is my first pregancy and a pregnancy that was much wanted and now I just feel so unhappy and worried about my babies future. I am a mess how can any man leave his wife and unborn child for no reason and no explanation!!

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