When it just all gets too much…

Motherhood and marriage are definitely two battlefields of their own. Some days I can feel like I am on top of the world and got everything under control then others I feel like i am drowning in tears and exhaustion. 

I am a work from home mum with a 11 month old baby boy with a husband who works approx 15 hours a day 6 days a week. I am isoalted from my friends as I do not have a car to drive and my family live in another country. Now I am not trying to look for sympathy here or play the violins but my god is it tough. 

Some days I feel like I can’t carry on and my mind goes to some pretty dark places wondering if my son would be better off with my mum and dad and that I wasn’t here. Sometimes I dread waking up in the morning because it’s a new day on repeat.

Then other days I can be so motivated, saving up money, focusing on house rennovations and be focusing on work when baby naps. 

I think you just got to embrace the bad days as you would the good instead of trying to block them out. Accept the emotions, let the tears flood in and release as tomorrow is a new day. I know I am a strong person to get through this on my own, I just wish others would recognize that sometimes… 

4 thoughts on “When it just all gets too much…

  1. Anonymous says:

    This is so touching! I hope your doing ok and having a better today. Motherhood is definetly the biggest rollercoaster of all and of course marriage combined is a whirlwind. But alot of instagram and facebook does make us believe people have the most perfect smooth sailing marriages, but does smooth sailing really exist in a marriage or motherhood ? Most of the time we speak about what we are feeding the kids when they last slept. Marriage is not a romance novel (unfortunately) it is real life! The pressures of everyday life can make marriage seem very mundane but we do love each other and that is all that really matters. The time we do actually get together ALONE we share passion but we also still disagree on alot of things and we need to remember that it is normal. I know its hard but try and do 1 thing everyday for yourself that you enjoy to give yourself that little bit of a break from everything else.

  2. Anonymous says:

    You need to talk to someone hun its not normal or good to feel the darkess you seem to be feeling. Please seek help professional or from someone really close to you like your mother or friend. Its the best thing I promise.

  3. Anonymous says:

    Everything is only temporary please remeber that, your feelings, your situation, the bad times. It’s all part of your journey that will lead you onto bigger and beautiful things. Stay strong and ride this out, you have got this, you are so strong. You have survived your darkest days before, you can do this again now.

  4. Anonymous says:

    The thing about this way that you feel rightnow is only temporary (as said above)
    I know that your mind is consumed right now with anxiety but these feelings will not last.
    It may not feel like it right now but these feelings will fade, maybe not today or tomorrow but they will in time and you will smile again, feel like you again and feel happy. Nothing is pernament. You are much stronger than you think you are right now, think about all of the hard times you have gotten through before, you got through it all and you will again.

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