Hi I feel like I need to just get things of my chest and some advice from people that actually dont know me. Im 29 now and recently just got married. When I was 18 I had a little girl but her father died when I was just four months pregnant. We didnt plan for a baby but we came to terms with becoming parents at such a young age, but after he died I couldnt go through it on my own and the thought of raising a baby by myself was scary but mainly SAD! All I could think about was him, I cried all the time I never got over this. I decided to give my baby up when she was born I thought she would have a better life with a proper family. Its been over 10 years now and of course I think about this all the time, I think about her what she looks like, if she hates me. My Husband now wants to start trying for a baby but I really cant as much as I would love to be a mum, it doesnt feel right! I mean I gave one child away how could I even deserve a chance to be a mother! I cant talk to my husband about this in so much detail because he tells me what I want to hear that I deserve to be a mum and I was young.
But this is still not an excuse I gave my little girl away and I regret it everyday how could I ever replace her!